I’ve really been getting into the power of our thoughts. It’s so hard to change the way you think. At least for me. I have been doing affirmations or, as I like to call it, brainwashing myself into believing I can create the life I want. The affirmations have been working. I find myself incorporating affirmations into conversations.
Neighbor: “Hey Kendra how are you?”
Me: “I love and adore myself”
My Full Moon Rituals have not been working. Last night was the closest the moon will be to the Earth all year. A great time to journal and get clear on new beginnings and wants and needs. I went out with a notebook in my neighborhood and got to writing. But the truth is, my belief in the process has started to wane. Here is what I came up with:
Dear Full Moon,
I hear so much about you. You have transformative powers. You symbolize new beginnings. You have power. I’ ve been counting on you, man. I’m not one to address situations like this head on. I prefer the cold shoulder or minimal eye contact when interacting style of expressing disappointment but with you, I won’t get the chance. It’s been a few moon cycles and no new beginning. Just the same old stuff. I don’t want to blame you but I find myself blaming you nonetheless.
I do my rituals, my incantations, I journal, I light candles and sage
I wear mumus
I believe in the process
I’m not sure what else I can do to invite you into my life
Maybe I should take a different approach and act uninterested and unaware that you are even happening?
You like it like that?
That just made me laugh.
Ok next month I am not doing one thing to address your arrival. No sweat. I can play that game.
But, just for the record, I am ready for a 30 day writing gig in a another country for over $5000.
I am also prepared to participate in cardiovascular activity three times a week and ENJOY it.
Owning a home would be great in the next three years.
I’m not asking you for anything just communicating information about myself that you might find interesting.
Anyway, you look great. Better than I remember you ever looking. Glowing, really.
You go, girl.
I look forward to hearing from you in whatever way you choose to communicate,
Enjoy the night,
PS Let’s cut the bullshit …Send help! For real!
Thanks for listening!
Kendra is a stand up comic living in Brooklyn. She is the proud owner of a $3000 bed where she eats, drinks, and occasionally entertains.